Thoughts, Curses, And Large Scale Thought Manipulation

Been a couple of months since I meant to make the first parts of this, but the wait seems to have been useful because it hasn't been able to fully leave my mind without writing it down. Anyway, time to tell you what all has been bouncing around in my head.


Gonna start this in a way that'll feel a bit odd, but I gotta give some context for my progression in understanding to make sense.

Doing dishes is a thing I had a very hard time with because the sensory experience of the soap and the food while I had to stand in an uncomfortable position all sucked a ton, and having to do that every night for a week (at the time me and my siblings took week long shifts) made it miserable. It changed two months ago when I went to do it again and noticed that oddly the food and the soap and the uncomfortable position I had to stand in didn't really bother me, but I kept thinking about how much I hated it. I didn't have good reason to hate it if I actually didn't mind these things that much. I still didn't like it, but hating it and having it be such a big deal was weird.

I don't totally remember because it was two months ago, but I either noticed that the thoughts didn't seem to be my own, or I remembered noticing that other thoughts weren't my own, so these probably aren't either. I think it was the first of the two, but I don't know. Anyway, I continued thinking about that and then I knew I couldn't let these external thoughts control me, and with it being a curse I doubly couldn't let them control me. I spent the rest of my time doing dishes trying different things to harm the curse, and none really seemed to work, but at least I had a better hold of the thoughts inside my head now that I knew what was going on. The rest of that week went better than previous ones, and it has helped me with doing the dishes since then (though this week has been harder and the list of possible reasons is annoyingly long).

In the time since then I have noticed and remembered how myself and others have talked about how we've had random thoughts of loved ones suddenly dying. There's no prompt, nothing even similar to it. In my experience, there's rarely even something to worry about before those thoughts appear. After I thought about it a little, I became sure it was a curse, but a curse that can effect so many people has to be on a level I can't conceive of. I have some theories as to what it might be and how it influences others, and I'll share them here.

1. Billions of fragments
The curse would have to be at an extremely high level by now with all of the fear and worry it's managed to accumulate, and I'd assume that a curse would want to have something to show off, so one main body and billions of fragments that it uses to effect the thoughts of others would make sense. This idea of how it might work is weaker I think, but without knowing more I can't tell how well this holds up.

2. Roots
One central mass with roots extending throughout the world is another possibility, and it seems much more likely to me. Instead of having to somehow maintain fragments and control them from afar, instead roots are put down which would act as direct links to whichever area is being targeted. This would make more sense if the curse preferred existing like a big evil tree.

3. Waves
It could be one single body that stays mobile and functions like any other curse, but it has mastered whatever their transmission method is, allowing it to effect everybody without having to be anywhere near them. If the curse is rather long lived, this is probably a decent possibility too.


In order to actually be able to do anything to a curse like this, no matter its form, I have to understand how curses effect thoughts at all. I simply have no idea. With the semi-physical attacks of most of the curses in my area, I just blow them up, slice 'em, or pulverize them, and then I eat them because I have an idea I'd like to test. I never see (sensing, but in my mind's eye I can see a rough form) them again, and it doesn't matter if I eat them or not, they still never show back up.

Also, how am I supposed to even try defending against an attack that I cannot understand? Killing curses is something I love dearly, but there's no good way to kill a curse if I can't even defend myself. As soon as I understand what's going on, I'm sure it'll be easy, but I'm not sure where to even begin with figuring it out. If you happen to have any ideas, please tell me. I want to kill as many curses as possible, and any help would be greatly appreciated.

Oh, and I didn't say it earlier, but I fully intend to kill whichever curse causes thoughts of sudden death of a loved one. I don't care if it takes my whole life, if I can take out something that's effecting so many, I can help a lot of people doing something that helps me too. I hope to kill all of the high level curses, but I'll need to learn a lot more for that.



I hope this was a nice read, and even if you already knew everything here, I hope my perspective was at least interesting to see. I have a Discord server you can join if you'd like to talk about this all in a place a little easier to use than Ghost comments. Anyway, thank you for spending the time to read my post.