Change in Perceived Energy

The way I see energy isn't really visual at all. I can somewhat sense it, but vision comes from visualizing the feeling. I couldn't tell you what the energy around me feels or looks like because I can't seem to sense it very well or at all, but I can say a bit about curses when I find them, and I can tell you what mine is like.

When I use my energy I visualize it to make it do what I want it to, but I can't force the visualizations to do whatever I want. There's something that limits what I can and can't do. It can also shift towards something without me thinking it should. Sometime in the past week or so I've been trying to make myself bright in a way after seeing a very nice sunset, and I've noticed a change in the color of my energy.

My energy has always been whatever color seems right for what I'm doing. Typically it's a white, orange, or red color, but I can make it whatever I want it appears (it's possible I just haven't had interest in an impossible color). Now, after making myself bright in a way, I've noticed its default has changed to a brighter golden color, and the way it flows around me is different too. It used to always be somewhat like a flame, but now it's more like a flowy bubble around me that's got undefined edges. I see small streaks of brighter energy moving around with it all too.

The form it takes is interesting because a while ago I thought about the form and how it's likely just a specific usage of the energy. I stopped thinking of burning it, and with a bit of time it's started looking more calm and less like it's working to do something. It also just feels a bit more refined, but I have no reference point so that might nothing.

Anyway, the change in color and form is pretty interesting to me, and I hope I remember to document further changes because I'd love to look back at this in the future and see if it changes a bunch more.