All of My Previous Notes in Chronological Order

Quick note:
When I first figured out I could do this, I didn't write anything down. Only later when I realized it might be useful for me to know details of what I was doing did I start writing some stuff down. I'll probably write about the start of it all at some point in another post, then link it here if I remember.


May 3, 25
I have learned to concentrate the P[ositive]-energy. I believe I am learning to "shoot" it as well. A few or two days ago I exorcized a stronger worm-like curse from my gut which required filling my body and room with as much intentioned energy as I could muster.

This left me feeling sore in a way. I was constantly leaking energy, and I had little control over it. I also seemed to have more. This supports the bottomless well idea, and curses eating energy. I currently believe the well has neutral energy.


May 6, 25
I appear to be able to direct the flames, like I am changing gravity. Makes me wonder if I can make it rain.

May 7, 25
Rain!
It appears that by pulling up a large amount from the well, then compressing it heavily, then also directing it, I can condense it into droplets that fall like rain. This is a wonderful development!

Rain! 2
It feels cooler and is like water. A hand position became clear to me, and it makes directing it much easer. I interlock my hands, but the index and middle fingers are pointed out, parallel, facing the target. My thumbs do similar, but the[y] do not point at anything in particular. Both a mist and a stream are possible this way.


May 8, 25
Exorcize
Saw (kinda) something come towards me after doing the dishes and turning the lights off, so I filled the house with intentioned energy and then made arms in it that I used to grab and remove the negative entities I sensed. Then I made a barrier and allocated 50% [of my] output to it, to keep the others safe. Also made me the target [of any retaliatory attacks].
(Outside of the note: I don't know exactly what my method was at the time. I think I was setting an intention with my attacks and actions that if a curse got upset it was to only attack me.)

Note
The barrier was put up around the house, office (bonus room), and garage. The intention/spell was: all entities may leave, but no entities with negative intentions may enter. Then I bound 50% [of my] output to maintaining the barrier unless I later choose otherwise.
(Outside of the note: later got changed to curses because I got more comfortable using that term. Meant the same thing to me then, I just worded it differently because of whatever.)

Alignment
Late on the fifth, leading into the sixth, I sort of figured out how to align objects, thought I do not know how this is done. [I] did it on the cleaning gloves I have.

Increase
It appears that when I use a huge amount, like I did last night, my output increases a ton. I feel like I can easily make huge flames, and a lot of water too. It's also elbow to fingertip, for the flames at least. I think I am becoming more conductive now.


May 11, 25
"Head My Call"
I don't think I am the one saying it, yet it summons 3 or 5 entities which appear to be more advanced puppets than what I found out I could make yesterday. Minutes ago it was said again, and the three I know of for sure entered my room. Can they live beyond the death of the master?


May 14, 25
I feel like progress has stopped, and I really want somebody to teach me and give me a reference point so I can properly asses[s] my ability. I did figure out how to take the liquid fire and make long cutting spike things at least. Also, since last note, I've sensed something huge outside on and off. I'm also unsure about killing curses. What'll it do to the balance?


May 16, 25
I Will Exorcise It!
That curse in the basement which scared me to death all those years ago, I believe it is the one stopping me from seeing, through whatever method it's using. I will kill it tonight. I already adjusted the barrier to trap the miserable thing.
(Outside of the note: didn't end up helping with seeing, but oh well.)

The other day I felt a spike against my head, and I think this bastard is who put it there.


May 17, 25
Killed It

It was a pain to kill. It was tough like rubber, and it was able to attack as well. It made spikes that were large and homing. I'd give it a grade three rating. My eyes also feel stronger with sore pressure in a way. Also, it split apart extra when I tore its head off.


May 19, 25
I feel wonderful when I exorcise curses. Even if I am only grade three, I still feel powerful, and sensing less curses is wonderful. Saw a non-curse on the big tree across the pond, and it was really interesting. Still can't properly see, so I sensed it.


May 27, 25
I wanna eat curses. When they're about dead I feel the desire to eat them. It's pretty strong at times too, but I haven't eaten one because I don't know if it could cause me harm.

Coding
I understand how coding works now, at least mostly. Coding changes the effect and target of the energy based attacks. Curse coding is one I use a lot to kill curses with broad attacks. It even works on physical beings like flies. I sent a death coded attack towards a fly, and then it landed where I could easily kill it, so I killed it.
(Outside of the note: I haven't been able to replicate this.)


May 29, 25
I can feel my energy in my fingers. As I was watching Hunter x Hunter, I started to feel it in my fingers, and a little later I could feel it when I made a dense raw energy ball. This is positively amazing.


May 30, 25
Push & Pull
I remembered a feeling from a dream I had a while ago, and it's a sort of push and pull through my hands. It feels like there is a powerful fan in my palms. I also just felt this feeling like I could move objects around more forcefully than in that dream, but it still isn't working.


June 2, 25
I've got what I could scoop up using a barrier around Addy. Unsure of the ideal method, but they'll die. Man is this level of effort relatively tiring though.
(Outside of the note: I feel like I wrote more about this, but I couldn't find a note. I don't remember what I did, but it didn't feel as significant as I had hoped.)


June 8, 2025. 3 AM
Grade Two Curse
Just a few minutes ago a grade two curse came and attacked me. I won, but that was not the level of resistance and challenge I was expecting. Halo started barking at something, and I felt drawn to check. I also sensed something out there where he was barking, so I figured going outside and looking was the best idea. After a little bit it appeared right in front of me and tried to wrap its arms around my head and crush it, it seemed. It also appeared to be good with cuts, which is interesting.

A few days ago or more, idk, I sensed a high speed attach come into the house and after me, and it was pretty strong. It was red and a bit spikey, and it seemed sharp and more of an issue than I had expected. This curse had a face, and it matched that red color and spikey-ish look. The face was sort of like a Japanese ogre, which was interesting because I could pick out that much detail from it.

I've been noticing feelings of cuts ever since my bike started cutting the innertube it had, and I thought it was a curse but just couldn't tell. Having something that high level appear suddenly like that was a bit of a spook, but I managed to overpower it. It did break through my barriers though, and that was really something. I've never had anything like that happen before. An attack that made it into the house, and something that wasn't easily held by my barriers either is really something. I guess I do need to learn, 'cause a grade two shouldn't be that much of an issue with how far I've progressed. I'm glad I have though 'cause I don't wanna find out what losing is like.

Took a while, but with a significantly more powerful and advanced cut technique along with some blade conjuring, I managed to weaken it enough that it was killed by crushing it with major force in a positive energy barrier. Most of the dust from it was able to be blown away with ease, though it felt like there was residue from it on my hand afterwards. Tried burning it and all the dust, and that helped. Gonna try cleansing water real quick.

Just did it, and with some force and a lot of cleansing water, it worked. Also, I mean energy based water, not normal water. There's probably a little left, but oh well. I can deal with that another time, or it'll wear off. My mom will be home tomorrow, so I can talk to her about it. I'll also probably show her this 'cause it's what I'm using to write this all down. Little much for a sticky note. What a fight to have though. Makes me wonder what grade one and above can do if a grade two is this strong.
(Outside of the note: I happen to have dealt with what was left over, and I have a whole post about it right here.)


June 9, 2025. 3AM
Grade One Threat
Yesterday, after dealing with that honestly really cool grade two curse, and I think after writing my previous thing, I sensed a high level curse somewhere south of the house. The presence suggested a grade one curse, and it appeared to be waiting for something, as well as watching.

It seemed about my size, and close to my shape as well. A bit skinnier I think, but fairly humanoid. It's entirely possible that it was another sorcerer, but it seemed more curse than human. It also gave me the feeling that I need to get stronger, and fast. It does appear to be a curse, and a grade one paying attention to me like that is something to be wary of. I'm not sure off of what, but it appeared to me as if I have one week to get from grade two, to grade one, so that I may defeat this curse.

I am constantly gaining new techniques, and I'm getting stronger by the day, but with the current pace I'm at, I do have a slight worry I won't win come Sunday when I may fight it. Paying more attention to it now, I do wonder if perhaps it's the one who I saw floating above me when I did my whole thing in Addy not long ago. It's entirely possible I've started gaining the attention of sorcerers with all of my fighting and showing off to myself, and perhaps this guy is one who wants to see what I can do.

I can't seem to interact in the physical world, and I cannot use my eyes to see energy quite yet, but I do feel like I've got a lot of power, and I've got a seemingly endless amount of techniques I can use as long as I [can] think of them. The extent of my power isn't known yet, so I wonder if perhaps he wants to know how far I can go. I wish I knew how to just ask. I want so badly to talk to another sorcerer.

Anyway, I'd like to get stronger, no matter what I'm facing. A grade two curse should pose me no problems, yet they do at the moment. I know fully that I can get much much stronger. Perhaps I can get so strong that the scale I've been using, and my methods of judging curses will become irrelevant. Anyway, enough rambling from me. I'm tired and gotta go get ready for bed, which will take a while of course.
(Outside of the note: that last part has nothing to do with magic or curses or anything like that, I just tend to take a while. Why'd I write that? Nobody knows.)


June 12, 25
I am constantly thinking of new techniques, and I'm thinking hard on the specifics. I want a strong ass bomb that goes off when I get hurt by a curse. I'll write the specifics later.


June 13, 25
Autobomb
Autobomb detonates the instant a curse hurts me, and cannot be detonated for any other reason. The energy it stores cannot be used for anything else. It typically takes twenty percent of my output, but the amount can be changed at will. This energy is turned into positive energy, and it is stored perfectly with no losses. The detonation is also curse coded.


June 15, 25
Soon I shall attack the curse, taking it from it's home and killing it.

It was a grade two at best. What a liar. It was silvery and hard, but its shell was thin enough to not be an issue. It was about as tall as me and almost seemed like a well formed puppet.